anticipation anxiety & positive projection decay

There’s a reason new beginnings feel threatening,even when they should feel exciting.
It’s called anticipation anxiety —✧ A nervous system respo...

anticipation anxiety & positive projection decay

There’s a reason new beginnings feel threatening,even when they should feel exciting.
It’s called anticipation anxiety —✧ A nervous system respo...

when wonder turns into fear

When we’re young,we don’t need certainty to feel excited.
We just need possibility.
But somewhere along the way,the unknown stopped being...

i used to be excited for what’s next

I saw a girl todaytrying on an outfit for her first day of work.She looked so alive.
The kind of alive that only comeswhen everything feels like...

The Rebirth Loop

This is not a meditation for thinking. This is a meditation for *resetting*. The Rebirth Loop is a long-form ambient experience designed to hold you d...

9 Mins | Your Quiet Outfit | A Guided Body Meditation for Shedding Performative Layers

This body-based meditation invites you to explore how identity lives in your skin — and how we can gently release the performative layers we no longer...

emotional extinction

You can be fully aliveand still… absent.
Not in body.In awareness. In sensation. In truth.
This is what I call emotional extinction —the s...

what dies before we do?

Lately, I’ve been thinking about death.Not in fear.Just in curiosity.
What actually dies… when we die?
Because the things we made stay.The...

emotional disidentification

There’s a strange kind of griefthat comes after the storm.
Not when everything breaks —but when everything becomes… distant.
It’s called e...

the version of me i can’t reach anymore

There was a time when everything felt loud.The grief. The rage. The confusion. The ache.
I was inside it.Inside the fight.Inside the spiral.Insi...

Not Everything That Used to Fit | A Guided Meditation for Outgrowing Old Selves

This meditation is for the quiet grief and soft power of outgrowing old versions of yourself.Sometimes, what no longer fits is a role you mastered. A...

Suitcase Moment | A Guided Meditation for Letting Go + Carrying What Matters

In this guided meditation, we explore the idea of the “suitcase moment” — the turning point where you decide what to carry forward, and what to leave...

The In-Between

The In-Between | A Guided Meditation for Quiet Transitions & Identity ShiftsThis is a meditation for the in-between — the silent space between who you...

why your nervous system doesn’t trust success

If you feel stuck in the cycle of chasing “the next” and never feel satisfied —you’re not ungrateful.You’re probably unregulated.
Here’s why:

emotional intelligence & achievement fatigue

Why the dopamine hits stop working when you abandon your self
Here’s what’s happening neurologically + emotionally:
✧ When you're in a chr...

role fusion: when function becomes your identity

There’s a term for what you’re experiencing:Role fusion.
It happens when a role you’ve performed repeatedly — often out of necessity — fuses wit...

protective projection & misattuned love

When we haven’t fully processed our own trauma,we often project protection onto people we love.
This is called protective projection —✧ When we...

why love becomes pain: trauma reenactment & emotional distortion

When love starts purebut ends in pain —you’re likely witnessing a trauma reenactment.
🌀 Trauma reenactment is when your nervous system subconsc...

trait shame & identity exile

Your “flaws” might just be your gifts —mismatched with their environment.
This is called trait shame —✧ When a core part of you is rejected, dis...

existential fatigue & narrative addiction

If everything feels pointless lately —you’re not depressed.You may be in existential fatigue.
🧠 Existential fatigue is the burnout of the soul:...

the fawn response disguised as ambition

I used to think I was just… driven.
Obsessed with getting it right.Eager to take on more. Quick to fix. Faster to say yes.
But underneath...

why reinvention can feel like betrayal

Reinvention sounds loud.
Clean. Fresh. Like a choice.
But the truth is, it often comes with grief.Guilt. Shame.
Not because you’re d...

is it intuition or shutdown?

I used to think silence meant clarity.
That if I wasn’t reacting — I must be grounded.
But sometimes what feels like peace…is just a syste...

the guilt of leaving a version of you others still love

There’s a version of me I outgrew quietly.
She was always available.Always agreeable.Always the one who stayed — even when her heart was already...

the performance that kept you liked — but never seen

For a long time, I thought I was just “easy to be around.”Low-maintenance. Chill. The kind of person who could adapt to any room.
But what I rea...

the ache beneath achievement

We don’t just chase goals.We chase proof.
That we’re worthy.That we’re safe.That we’re enough.
So we stack up checkmarks —titles, launches...

when your achievements don’t match your values

Not all exhaustion is physical.Some of it is emotional —the kind that builds up when we keep climbing ladders we don’t even believe in.
You can...

the role you became to survive

We all learn roles.Some of us learn them too well.
The Helper. The Professional. The Reliable One.The Calm Voice. The Fixer. The Face of the Bra...

when your love is a trauma response

This is what can happenwhen you survive without safety —you turn love into a plan.
You build frameworks.You offer what you wish you had.And you...

pain that pretends to be love

We don’t hurt the people we lovebecause we want to.
We hurt thembecause we love them through the lens of our own pain.
Unhealed pain doesn...

disowning the gift too soon

Most of us don’t abandon our gifts on purpose.We disown them to survive.
You were probably told, directly or subtly:✧ “You’re too much.”✧ “You’r...

existing isn’t a failure

the grief of roles that expired quietly

the part of me i buried to belong

how does love turn into pain?

It starts with the best of us.The soft eyes. The slow texts. The feeling of being known.
It starts with love.Real love.
The kind we mean.T...

maybe none of this means anything

Lately, I’ve been wonderingwhat the point of any of this is.
The breath in. The breath out.The deadlines. The inbox. The striving.The trying-so-...

the moment the mirror said: this isn’t you

I didn’t change anything.
Same clothes. Same morning routine. Same mirror above the sink.
But one day — something was off.
Not my fa...

the chase felt like progress — until i broke in place

the ache that no finish line can solve

they praised the version of me i rehearsed daily