Multigenerational Healing, Poetry + Fertility with Brynn Saito

Today I’m joined by Brynn Saito: educator, organizer, and award-winning poet. Brynn’s latest collection of poetry, Under a Future Sky, was inspired by...

Ménière's Disease, Hearing Loss + Missed Communication

This week, join me for a co-hosted episode alongside returning guest, Melissa Platt. She is a clinical psychologist who specializes in working with su...

Partner TBI & Journeying Through the Grief Portal

Joining me on the podcast today is our very special guest, Shideh Etaat, an Iranian-American writer. Shideh holds an MFA in creative writing from San...

Partnering With Yourself While Navigating The Unknown

My guest this week is Michelle Irving, who combines training with personal experience to offer mentorship and coaching around career and chronic illne...

Body Image, Entrepreneurship + Indigenous Identity with Alison Tedford Seaweed

Today I'm joined by Alison Tedford Seaweed: a Canadian consultant, author and mother who lives with hypermobile ehlers-danlos syndrome, chronic idiopa...

Chronic Illness and The Holidays: Tips for Joy & Connection

 
In today’s special bonus episode, I delve into the topic of navigating the holidays with loved ones while dealing with chronic illness. The ho...

Savoring This Moment as a Highly Sensitive Person

This week, I’m joined by returning guest, April Snow. She’s a psychotherapist and author of The Empowered Highly Sensitive Person's Journal and The Mi...

Season 4 Premiere: Getting Lost, Laughter + Belonging

70: The Abundant Living Conference for Therapists, April 8-10

Welcome to a bonus episode of This is Not What I Ordered! I’m so excited to announce a special upcoming event. It’s called the Abundant Living Confere...

69: Season Three Finale

Welcome to the Season 3 Finale! In a year filled with COVID-19, a racial justice movement, wildfires, an election, and now the death of Ruth Bader Gin...

68: Apart Together with Monica Michelle + Courtney Brame

Podcasting has brought so much to my life, both as someone who loves hearing others’ stories and as someone who wants to learn from the experiences of...

67: Race + What We Don't Say, Pt. 2

Today’s episode marks the second part of my conversation with relational therapist, social justice educator, intuitive narrative coach, and social jus...

66: Race + What We Don't Say

This week I'm sitting with Celia Hilson, who's returned to the podcast after joining me on Season 2 (Episode 28). Celia is a relational therapist, soc...

65: Grieving, Acknowledging + Taking Action

64: Enjoying the Non-Sense with Sherry Espinosa + Melissa Platt

We’ve had couples on the podcast, we’ve had reunions, we’ve had “quarantine chats.” This week, I’m bringing you a friendship “roundtable” with the lov...

63: No One Else I'd Rather Be With with Erynn + Leo Newman

In this week’s episode of This is Not What I Ordered, I’m taking you along for a little reunion. I recently caught up with Erynn & Leo Newman, who are...

62: Chronic Quarantine Life with Latasha Doyle + Lily Sloane

Today’s episode is a bit different than most of the ones you’ll hear on This is Not What I Ordered. Instead of an interview with a single guest or cou...

61: It's OK If You're Not OK with Kristina Sarkisova

Coming to terms with chronic illness is something we’re all trying to do. Kristina Sarkisova is on the podcast this week talking about her journey to...

60: You Are Enough with Ijmal Haider

This was such a special conversation with Ijmal Haider (of “Hidden Spoons” and the “Help Us” YouTube channel). Having lived with Ulcerative Colitis fo...

59: Giving Yourself Grace with Dr. Monica Blied

On today’s episode, I’m joined by Dr. Monica Ellis-Blied, a licensed psychologist, health coach, and chair yoga instructor living in California.
...

58: Courageous Mourning with Melinda Laus

Melinda Laus has always felt “different.” From her earliest memories, she struggled with asthma, allergies, and feeling like her body just worked diff...

57: Solitude + Connection with Andy McLellan

In this episode, I’m joined by Andy McLellan, a haiku poet and trainee Zen priest living in Canterbury, UK.
 
Nearly 25 years ago, when An...

56: Living With Visible Illness with Lashana Taylor

Dealing with an invisible health challenge can be beyond frustrating. But what happens when a traditionally invisible illness becomes manifest? And ho...

55: Sitting with the Unknown with Michelle Horton

In this episode, I’m joined by Michelle Horton, a close friend and fellow therapist.
 
In the middle of finishing grad school and planning...

54: Better Than a Cookie-Cutter Life [Couple's Edition] with Latasha + Shane Doyle

On this week’s episode, I’m bringing back the Couple’s Edition of This is Not What I Ordered to share an intimate and insightful discussion with Shane...

53: Building Your Grace Muscle with Latasha Doyle

This week on This is Not What I Ordered, I am so excited to share my recent chat with a very special guest: Latasha Doyle. Latasha owns her own copy a...

52: You Don't Have to Apologize with Natalie Enright

In this episode, I am so excited to share my chat with Natalie Enright, an Adult Services Librarian living in San Francisco. 
 
Natalie, w...

51: Enjoying the Dive with Mike Bajrami

This week, I’m talking to Mike Bajrami, a tech and audio agency owner living in the Los Angeles area. During our discussion, he shares his unique pers...

50: Hearing Loss + Listening Inward with Melissa Platt

In this episode, I’m joined by Melissa Platt as she shares the story of how her challenges with hearing loss taught her to truly listen. Melissa is a...

49: Learning to Love My Own Heart with Sherry Espinosa

In this episode, I’m joined by Sherry Espinosa for an insightful and full-hearted discussion about how she got more comfortable with her health challe...

48: Releasing Perfectionism with Lily Sloane

For this episode of Not What I Ordered, I’m joined by my amazing music editor and close friend, Lily Sloane. Lily is a therapist, composer, audio prod...

47: Acceptance is Power with Sheryl Chan

In this episode of This Is Not What I Ordered, I’m joined by Sheryl Chan — a web developer, writer, and travel enthusiast living with multiple chronic...

46: Finding a New Way Through Pain with Stefan Weiner

In this episode, I’m joined by accomplished singer-songwriter and chronic pain survivor Stefan Alexander Weiner. Stefan lives with central sensitizati...

45: Highly Sensitive + Thriving with April Snow

On the Season Three premiere of This Is Not What I Ordered, I sit down with April Snow as she shares how her life-long health journey with eczema and...

44: Season Two Finale

For the season finale of This Is Not What I Ordered, I’d like to take a look back at the amazing guests of Season Two, share some updates from the gue...

43: You Don't Have to Feel Happy with Lauren Selfridge

The days are getting shorter, sunlight is scarce, and the end of the year is rapidly approaching. That’s why I want to use this episode to check in wi...

42: Creating Art Amidst Pain with Ramon Shitta

Ramon Shitta is a talented Nigerian storyteller and artist who has been battling a mysterious and ever-evolving undiagnosed chronic illness for most o...

41: Evolving Dreams With Ehlers-Danlos with Monica Michelle

In this episode, I interview Monica Michelle, a children’s book writer, illustrator, and mother of two living with fibromyalgia and Ehlers-Danlos synd...

40: After the Silver Lining with Drew Althoff

Drew Althoff is a musician and songwriter, an aspiring middle school teacher, and a committed partner. Recently embarking on his journey with kidney d...

39: The Hangry Woman with Mila Clarke Buckley

Mila Clarke Buckley is a type 2 diabetes advocate and digital storyteller who started her food blog, "The Hangry Woman," after being diagnosed with ty...